Even the stars we see
are only a kind of memory,
already dead for years.

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Christmas came early today.
My dad gave us each an iPad as a surprise lik omgg. Haha, I'm using it now to blog !! The keypad is not as bad as i thought. You can actually type on it like how you type on your laptop.. Just use for a while and you'll be used to it alr..!

Anyhows, the past few days have been crazy, but all iz well.
And after monday, it's time for me to start researching on my third year project and thesis. So if you see me, pls ask me about it so that I will feel the urgency hahaha ayeee.

*sniff* *sniff*
*sniff sniff* *sniff sniff*

:)

The Notebook ♥

LOSING SIGHT

Why am I still here, when you're already home.

DROWN

This is Tzuki's friend, Natasha, iphone cover !! So cute right. I want a BB one :( haha my current one's cracking.

Anyway, I'm so tired lol.
I slept from from 12am to 11pm, and then I took a nap from 5pm to almost 7pm and I still feel so sleepy hahaha

Cant wait for icecream !

Really old, but one of my favourites ♥


Ever since I've been given the responsibility of a cgl, I've become more aware of my imperfections and how flawed I am. It's not a bad thing.. because I've learnt to be more dependent on God. Titles aside, it really just means a whole new level of putting aside self, being broken, serving others, increasing availability. I often find myself struggling between taking the easy way out and allowing myself to be discomforted. It's been a long (and short, at the same time) journey. Fighting, failing, and picking myself up again. And here I am now, facing my demons yet again.

Perseverance.

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Yes, I do realised my blog entries have become quite uhh revolved around one thing ahahaha so I shall attempt to write abt something else today.

I think I've become an expert in cooking almost hard-boiled eggs haha, yknow when the yolk is still really yellow, and just solidified so it's not hardened, but really soft yolk ? HAHA yes. I've got pictures in my phone but I'm lazy to upload them to my lappie now, so.

And, I am currently building up a list of awesome food places in London (mainly cafes cos I dont have money for restaurants hahaha) that I've been to or really want to check out. Speaking of which, I am feeling hungry now..

And if you're in Singapore, please help me look out for any temporary jobs mmkay. I'm in (desperate) need of a job :< I dont mind anything, really, though I do prefer retail/admin to being say, a waitress in a restaurant (I cannot carry and serve heavy plates); working at somewhere creative would be ideal.

Or just be able to call/text for that matter :)

The weather is cold, I'm actually sipping tea now and becoming Brit.

PERSPECTIVE

This is for those on a facebook fast ahaha you know who you are ;) Wahaha nah uh. My hair's super qiaoing at both sides today and Tzuk says I look like strawberry shortcake (gosh i typed shortberry shortcake, this is what weaving does to you -_-). It's not that obvious here though..

I cant wait for MONDAY. Omgomgomgomg

MOMENTS

I dont think I've ever frown this much in a day before. Crepewool is my enemy now. Really not liking this project, boo. I dint think the day would get any worse, but I was soaked in rain by the time I got home >:( Anyhows, thank God for dirisami :) though I'm still kinda frowning, I do feel so much better. And also after a fa-qi-ing session with Tzuk, heehee. Having dinner (I cooked seafood pasta :D) now at 10pm, meh. We got chased out of the weave room earlier than usual cos it's Friday night, and Marium was lik nooo we dont have a life, let us stay till 930pm ahahahaha love that girl.

I'm going out tmr, I dont care. I want some seafood green curry from Borough market. If not, Im gng to Spitalfields for some cakes or pies muahahaha

TONIGHT

watch my back so i'll make sure
you're right behind me as before
yesterday the night before tomorrow

dry my eyes so you won't know
dry my eyes so i won't show
i know you're right behind me

you know them all, i know it all
stay put and play along
'cause i'm looking for my friend
now i got you, got you

So this is how it feels like.
Insanely (insert positive feeling here).

You're amazing, you know that right ♥

Even in a phonecall, even in my thoughts

"And then I laugh, because it’s so ridiculous and so gorgeous and it’s all I can do not to melt in a fit of giggles.”

/Water for Elephants, Sara Gruen

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It's been a relaxing weekend.
Going for some szechuan food later, and korean tmr :D Am gna try boba jam as well (apparently they have these yoghurt pearls), will let you know the verdict.

That’s why I love you and yet not why.
There are so many reasons, and yet so few,
for love has to be so,
involving and general,
particular and terrifying,
joyful and grieving,
flowering like the stars,
and measureless as a kiss.

/Amor, Pablo Neruda

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Next Tuesday's the end of May, woot. Told ya May was gna pass fast. June will be here soon woohoo. Not really looking forward to weaving in June but it's a short project anyway I guess. I feel like packing already.. maybe I should. Need to get cardboard boxes first. Anyway, so proud of myself today. I dint buy bubbletea and I dint buy Cafe Nerro's milkshake either. Anddd, I finally cooked Japanese curry rice. Anddddd, I finished my essay ! :D Awesome notz.

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