These dreams under my pillow
In the twilight of these white nights

I am stressed.
I finally got hit by the stressbug >:(
I want a hug.
Or maybe not. I think I'd cry if someone were to hug me now.
I want my boyfriend lik, here with me :(
But I am not fussy. I could do with twirl. Or cupcakes. Or really good rocky road. Or ice cream. Milkshake ? A good burger ? Haha..
My head feels like a bundle of ...!? ready to spill out or burst any time.
I've got so much so much to do, but I dont even know what to do.

Ohmygosh.

(by the way, the picture above is drawn using a ball-point pen...... amazing or what.)

BETWEEN TWO LUNGS

Wow. First time I actually have that many notes on tumblr. 81 notes. First time I actually have more than 10 LOL. And it's only because it's McQueen we're talking about haha

Seriously. Stupid period. I'm having a huge craving for twirl and it's actually distracting me from my school work. You have to try it if you can. It's similar to cadbury flake (twirl is produced by cadbury too..) but more intense. I got Mercy addicted to it, and I intend to spread that love further.

Cant wait for Friday. Then December. Then 2012.

♥

http://asos.to/ASOSPartyDressMesh

Shit. This is damn nice. £55. Guess it's a good thing they dont have it in my size ha. (Not that I have £55 to spare lol) Facebook and Asos should be banned from my laptop. Back to market research...........

BLUE VALENTINE

Dean: In my experience, the prettier a girl is, the more nuts she is... which makes you insane. You're probably nutty coo coo crazy.

Cindy: I like how you can compliment and insult somebody at the same time, in equal measure.

& it will be the best thing ever.

It would have been an otherwise crap day if not for Mercy, Darel and the lifegroup. Even though you guys had no idea, thank you. Not to forget, Florence and the Machine.

It's not my birthday yet, but certainly feels like it came early! I received two presents today :D (and also, I ate some super awesome cookies earlier) (and, I'll be going to see some fireworks later in the night) (and going to a party aft that.. to celebrate someone else's birthday lol)

Anyhows, I went out to collect one from the PO, and when I was back, a package came through the door ! (I'll not talk about this one yet.. because I am still in the midst of confirming who the sender is lol. Dont wna make assumptions though I think I know who, heheh)

So yes.
Mr Benjamin Ong ♥ sent me a package but I was out ystd so I had to collect it today, and when I opened it, I was too touched to function. Literally.


(the picture does not do it any justice at all)
(best thing ever) (after God) (and after the boyfriend)

It's too precious, it's 100% leather, and the design is just amazing; I dont know how I'm going to use it ! You know lik, I would get so paranoid bringing it out hahahaha
It's similar to how someone gives you a really really pretty book, and you dont want to ruin it by filling it with your ugly handwriting or with dodgy pen inks or make a grammatical mistake or some sort.

I love you baby :') ♥

Positivity.

I actually did work today. Like, spending time in the library and getting down on my dissertation stuff. Kudos to me lololol. I do want to work on it more, but I am getting very very hungry (and sleepy too, may I add). Stomach is more important ^^

Anyway, I went to the doctor's today to re-register myself and also to get a doctor's letter. Guess what. I lost 4kg over the last three weeks when I was sick :O That's massive. I'm even lighter (ok just a kg less) than I was before I first came to London !

Anyway, I need to go now. To the toilet, and then to get my stomach filled haha love you guys ♥ !

This is a bit late.
Wanted to blog about this, but internet's being a bugger nowadays.

I'm sure many of you know/heard about the Chinese toddler who got ran over twice, with people passing by in between but reacted with nonchalance towards the badly injured toddler on the road.

I watched the video, out of curiosity. And curiosity killed me.
The first time she got ran over, I started crying. The second time, I couldnt watch. And by the end of the video, I was sobbing like nobody's business, feeling so helpless and pathetic. My mind couldnt comprehend what I just saw. The next thing I knew, I started saying sorry. Sorry on behalf of all the people who walked pass and did not hesitate to do so; sorry she experienced the ugly side of humans in the last moments of her life; sorry how the principles and values of many societies in the world have been compromised, seared and forgotten, even as we progressed tremendously.

Then I started saying sorry. Sorry for all the times I dint lend a helping hand even though I could have; sorry for all the times I compromised my own values because of pride, fear and selfishness; sorry for all the times I talk more than I act; sorry for the times I always think there's always another time.

I dont know why this is happening. All I can think is that this is a wake-up call of what the world is becoming into- apathetic. I dont think it is just China alone. I am pretty sure there are other similar cases like this, except that this happened to be caught on camera and went viral online.

And so I have made a decision. A really, really simple one.
Just treating people in general nicer, and being more appreciative of them. Saying thank you every time I board the bus. Smiling at the cashier. Buying food for the beggar. Giving small treats. Hugging people more. I dont know.. I dont know if any of my actions will make an impact at all, but I do believe it helps make the world a little better, somehow, no matter how small it is. Of course I'm only human and I still fail. But I will keep trying; I dont ever want to lose my soul, and forget what it is to live, even in the busyness and rat-race of life..