IMMA HIPPIE

The greys in my hair are really showing right now :o I know what I can be for Halloween, a boy or an ahma hahahahaha

(I can hear people screaming outside now -.-)

Daylight savings starting later today ! One hour more to sleep :D

Lost. That's what was in there. Grief, sorrow, wordless and unfathomable. Not what I felt this morning, septic, panicked. This was distilled. Niki put her arm around my waist, I put mine around hers. We stood and mourned. I could imagine how Jesus felt, his pity for all of humanity, how impossible it was, how admirable. The painting was Casals, a requiem. My mother and me, Niki ad Yvonne, Paul and Davey and Claire, everybody. How vast was a human being's capacity for suffering. The only thing you could do was stand in awe of it. It wasn't a question of survival at all. It was the fullness of it, how much could you hold, how much could you care.

/White Oleander, Janet Fitch

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It sure feels strange reading my older entries.
Strange to be reminded of the forgotten; to almost be able to feel how I felt at those points of time, and to recall feelings/emotions I do not now remember feeling before.

Wasnt reading cos I felt nostalgic. Was actually looking for a non-existent entry haha memory fails me.

It dawned on me that as much as the past is in the past, there's still this fear of history repeating itself. Scenarios of the past in the future gng over and over in my head. & Because the best is in the present, I cant help but wonder if the worst's yet to come.

Last night; this morning.
I actually got a taste of it; how it'd feel to have lost you. Not to any one, or any thing, or even you. Strangely enough, as scary as it was, it comforted me.


Sometimes I really wish we do not need to sleep.

[..] Believe me when I say, I take you as you are, even if you are intangible—I touch but do not hold, grasp but do not comprehend. I will never try to capture the sun, it is not mine to keep.

We are but dust bunnies frolicking by the corner of your bedside table— I could never see you in all that darkness but I don’t need to see you to know you. One can never trust the eyes, they have seen too much, they have seen too little; They see only what they want to see, and maybe I see only you. But touch, it is less presumptuous, and less affected. You feel only what there is; or isn’t. When all is said and done, am I going to be the one who bites the dust? Only a fool gladly takes the fall, but aren’t we all fools of the world and a world of fools?

/thatsblasphemy.tumblr

yesterday i saw you staring out the window watching the birds fly by,
feet sewn to the floor,
eyes filled with dreams.

(nobody ever really wakes up)

/suzywire.tumblr

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It hit me today that October's ending already. And I thought it just started :o

Anyhows, the last time I talked about how pretty I thought the moon was, was in January (time flies, indeed) and Yiling rolled her eyes hahaha never thought I'll blog about the moon again, but I really need to mention this one. The moon last night was like jaw-dropping, srsly. Pity my camera battery died on me (though even if it dint, its night pictures arent say very nice also haha), and so I was left with Nokia E75....... hahaha, I kept looking at it and almost walked right pass Pizza Express (my destination), but luckily David (Lee) saw me and called me hahaha, oh and because, like I said, all I had was Nokia E75, I saw this guy taking pictures of the moon, and went up and gave him my email address to send me a picture of whatever he took. And he did ! Whee :D Such a kind soul.

So I shall share the love with you guys.



Tbh, it's a good picture. But trust me, the moon was lik 100x nicer hahahaha honest.

“I must learn to love the fool in me- the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.”

/ Theodore Isaac Rubin

You know you're hungry (or mayb just plain stubborn) when..
you use a swiss knife, blunt scissors and pure strength to open a can of potatoes when the can-opener(s) does not work.


(Kids, please dont try this at home)
(If you do, please wash all equipment before using them, and of course, after that as well. Do wash the potatoes before cooking too. And rmb to say grace before tucking in.)

Thought I shld take a picture of what I cooked since I spent like half of the time opening the can.



Cant really see the ingredients but there were potatoes (duh), tuna and corn (was too hungry to take a decent picture) ! Wasnt sure how it'll turn out cos I just dumped whatever I cld find in the kitchen, but it actually tasted quite nice :D I'll probably cook it agn for lunch on Monday hehe

Every minute you spend with someone
gives them a part of your life and takes part of theirs.

/Ally Condie

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Any time; all the time.

ACROSS THE UNIVERSE

The loss was hard on Hassan-
it always hurts more to have and lose, than to not have in the first place.

/The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini

You might be wondering what do I wear these days, in order to match with my new hairstyle. So here's an example hehe



And when I want to feel abit more girlie.. I throw in a pair of earrings hahaha ok oohh yess, I tried to capture my hair colour using the table lamp (can see the blue not ?!)



Ok. I think I've become more of a camwhore after having my hair cut ahahaha ohwell.

Heart Preparation.
I dont know if I really do want to know, but I can't remain ignorant forever, can I. Or rather, I dont really know to what extent do I want to know. Because, just knowing a little is already enough to make me question. That, what if it is all but just a bubble, waiting to be burst. To be honest though, it does not actually matter that much, does it. I mean, I believe in you. It's just that, I dont know if I believe in myself. I just think the worst about everything.

"It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness.
We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace."

/Diary, Chuck Palahnuik (via wednesdayelegy)

The beauty of things that fade away

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I actually styled my hair this morning (or tried to), but I ended up leaving my house with my whole hair covered aha


(yea I brought my laptop and my charger, and my phone and my charger hahahaha; very well prepared to stay till late woot woot)

Hahahaha, the wind is too strong for my exposed head luhhh. Yea yea, I'm working at the studio now whee.

(Sorry, I know I've been bombarding my blog and you with pictures of my hair hahaha)

I'm alil sad cos I'm looking at shoes I cant buy, and it's been a while since I bought shoes.. okay. I just bought a pair of lik, trainers last week but but but it's different hahaha I'm looking at awesome-looking wedges and heels with pretty details and toms-inspired flats now (all Di's fault hahaha she introduced me to a blog which introduced me to this). Ok I'm so hungry now. And Felimiaomiao just told me she's gna have ThaiExpress omgg haha I shld sleep now, I hope I dream of eating good food or something.

Ok. I know I've talked about it before, like, last year.. but I seriously have no idea how guys can tolerate cold with their short hair. Thank God I went home first and decided to change my coat and bring a scarf along, before heading down for CU.

On the way home, I basically went from this



to this


(yes, with my hand there the whole time cos I was too cold to adjust my scarf properly hahah)

DEDICATED TO MY HAIR

So.
If you havent already seen the picture on Twitter,



Yes, I know I look like a boy now hahahahahahaha so while I try and look more like a girl (say, mayb use some heart-shape pins) and wait for my hair to grow longer, expect minimal pictures taken and possibly no video-calling at all, sorry people hahaha ok to be honest, I do like it. And it's funny now that it's so short, I feel like chopping the right side of my hair off too mayb cos the fringe is alil irritating. Plus, I think that it looks abit weird lehh; you cant see it here cos obviously my head is tilted to my left hahaha) but it's very very very straight !! Hahaha

Sooo, correction.
While I try and look more like a girl (say, mayb use some heart-shape pins) and wait for my hair to grow longer, expect pictures of only my left side to be taken and possibly only the left side of my face to be shown during video-calling hahahaha

Now, let's talk about my first dyeing experience at Vidal Sassoon. They're so nicee I tell you (not because they're paying me to get my hair cut and dyed ok haha), they took my coat for me, my bag, and even served me tea and juice afterwards haha

Anyhows, they told me I was gna have like blues and greys in my hair which I was like ohok haha but srsly, I think they just picked those colours from my outfit which was mainly blues and greys haha ok. I was wearing yellow too, but I figured they probably just dint pick it cos like I'm chi and my skin colour is alr somewhat yellow hahahahahaha



I dint know they were gna dye my whole hair blue, and hence, the face hahaha



When I saw this, the first thing that came to mind was that I hope I dont look ahlian, but turns out, they were just bleaching it first so that they can colour it grey (how I know right !) hahaha



I really liked this heater thing hahaha cos the room was cold ! (And then, my phone battery died hahahaha)

Anyhows, you cant see the colours cos the blue is really dark, and the lighter blue and grey (which looks kinda brown) are like only on my right side, and sorta peekaboo hahaha



So there.
Byebye virgin hair !

THE REMINDERS IN THE SKY

You are the distance between the way things are and the way I want them to be.

/IWroteThisForYou

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Recently, my technician asked me if I studied in America before, because apparently, I've got a slight American accent :s And even more recently, a Singaporean asked me where I came from, which surprised me haha, he said I dint sound Singaporean :s

My accent has gone all wrong omgg hahahaha I'm not picking up the accent I'm supposed to ! HAHAHA According to Mercy, I've got a mixture of English, American and Singlish accents (she calls it the Wei Lin accent ahem). Not sure if that's a good thing; I seem to be picking up accents from everywhere and mixing them up zz

Anyhows, I'm supposed to do work (I even had a plan in mind), but I'm so tired I might actually sleep soon..!

JOSHUA 1:5-9

Amidst the sleepiness during lectures today, I actually learnt something haha ! Imitation makes the original and authentic possible. Something can never be considered as being successful if there isn't the risk of failure. You cant have one without the other. So true. Hmm.

Soooo..
All of us fail at some points in our life.
However, though failure is a fact of life, it is not a way of life.
There is no other way to fail forward other than to take risks.

Therefore, let us not be afraid to take risks, such that when we fail, we fail forward :-)

LG social was WWWW btw.
Daunting, but exciting. I feel like I've so much more to learn.

Doing work makes me fat. I've been eating non-stop since I started working on my sketchbook aahhhhh and the temperature at home is not helping at all (weather is good, but my flat feels colder than outside !) As you can tell, I've not started starving myself since the day I splurged on yarns. However, as of Wednesday (cos I've got free chicken tmr haha), I definitely will. Why, silly me went to spend on Nandos on Sunday, and on lunch today (all me fault; woke up late--> no time to prepare packed lunch) ahahaha zz

Anyhoos.
Glad I got some work done. At least my sketchbook is starting to look like one ! Imma happy girl today :-)

LIKEWISE

You need to believe in things that aren’t true. How else can they become?
/Terry Pratchett

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Silly,
Without You, I'm Just Plain Jane.

FAITH IS,

When you get to the end of all the light you know and it's time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: either you will be given something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly.

/Edward Teller

KEEPING NOTES

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You know the weather in London is good when outdoors feel exactly the same as indoors. BBC Weather forecast says that it'll be sunny for the next few days; am keeping my fingers crossed !

I dont know if it's a good thing I brought extra cash with me to the Knitting and Stitching show today. I went crazy over all the yarns (just like how I went crazy the moment I stepped into CassArt on a Student Sale day early this year, and spent slightly less than £50). Sure, now I own pretty yarns, but I spent lik, £30 on them omgg. And to get into the show, you've to pay £12, so technically, I spent £42 on yarns today. Def OVER-BUDGET.

You know the feeling you get after spending a considerably huge amount of money, that another one or two pounds spent after that doesnt really matter ? Not that it really doesnt matter, but you're just like oh whatevs and give in to spending the last of your pounds on things you can actually save on (ie an oreo milkshake, £3.80 to be exact). Then agn, I had a long day today (and yesterday, may I add); the milkshake was (and possibly chopchop's laksa later shall be) my well-deserved reward okay.

And tmr shall begin the day I starve myself as a result of my expenditure today.

Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

PS