Top three questions I'm asked
1. How are you ? (usually by church people)
2. How many samples have you done ? (and, weave people)
3. Did you highlight/cut your hair again ? (every.single.time.)

Like I've got so much money and time to highlight and cut my hair every week -.- haha, ok but I guess it's a good thing, cos it means my hairstyle seemingly changes hahah and I dint realise my hair has grown pretty long until I saw the picture Elaine posted on facebook :o looks like my prev hairstyle.

By the way, I am getting my hair cut tmr hahaha :s
Really cld do with 15pounds more, cos I just recalculated my expenses and I've gone negative into the next month alreadyy T.T Mehh.

Love this acoustic cover.

It’s not ladylike, he said. You look like a little boy when it’s so short.

Don’t be a fool, she told him.

But doesn’t it bother you?

Of course it bothers me when you’re a fool.

Your hair, he said.

I think it’s very pretty.

Can it be pretty if no one thinks it’s pretty?

I think it’s pretty.

If you’re the only one?

That’s pretty pretty.

And what about the boys? Don’t you want them to think you’re pretty?

I wouldn’t want a boy to think I was pretty unless he was the kind of boy who thought I was pretty.

I think it's pretty, he said. I think it's very beautiful

Say it again and I'll grow it long.

I know, he laughed, kissing her forehead as he pinched her ears between his fingers.

/Everything is Illuminated, Jonathan Safran Foer

Similar to how we can actually love God more and more each day, even though He's not here physically physically.

“I think that when you fall in love with someone, every single day you spend with them, you fall in love even more. It’s like you find something else to love about them everyday. The way they laugh, the way they sneeze, even the way they blink. I think that’s how relationships last — when things are exciting. Every day you spend with that person is like an adventure into their soul.”

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I think it's amazing how that is possible, even when I dont cant see you.

PAPER HEART

“So you say you don’t believe in love now, but have you always felt that way?”
“I believed in it when I was a kid, but then again, all my ideas about love kind of came from movies and fairy tales. And as I grew up, I realized that life is nothing like that.”

“Was that ‘cause you had your heart broken?”

“No. I’ve only ever had one boyfriend. I thought I really liked him. I thought he was all dark and mysterious, and he had shadows under his eyes. But then I realized that was only because he was on drugs.”

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Cute movie.
Not sure if I'm bias cos of the company, but I liked it anyway :)
And there's Michael Cera, haha.

On a side random note,
You and your furry wintey hatty 200km north of the equator, srsly who does that. Oh, you crack me up. Even in random thoughts whilst drawing flowers.

“There are no strangers here; Only friends you haven’t yet met.”
/William Butler Yeats

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Your grace, is enough.

“The things that people in love do to each other they remember, and if they stay together it’s not because they forget, it’s because they forgive.”

/Indecent Proposal

"Life is funny, isn't it? Just when you think you've got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about it and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is suddenly west and you're lost."
//Cecelia Ahern; Where Rainbows End

The lessons you teach are never easy. They always take time, always require humility and almost always involve some breaking of heart. And despite all the pain of being moulded into your peg, I realise that the most important thing is how your lessons have the tendency to cut straight through everything else that is happening in my life to show me who and what I need to hold closest to my heart. And whenever I am going through these lessons, I am always forced to ask myself, how important is everything else in the light of the plan that is set out for me?

So time and again, I am reminded. That some things come together for a reason, fall apart for a reason, stay apart for a reason. That other things will come in for a reason, stay there for a reason and grow into better things for a reason.

Where I am now is a good place to be. Whatever else that I cannot change, I give it to you.

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I wanted to tell her everything, maybe if I’d been able to, we could have lived differently, maybe I’d be there with you now instead of here. Maybe.. if I’d said, ‘I’m so afraid of losing something I love that I refuse to love anything,’ maybe that would have made the impossible possible. Maybe, but I couldn’t do it, I had buried too much too deeply inside me. And here I am, instead of there.

/Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, Jonathan Safran Foer

UNTANGLE ME

“Here’s to words that tell the truth, when it’s easier to lie.
Here’s to staring into the sun, when you used to close your eyes.”

/The Maine

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Yesterday, the bathtub drain was srsly clogged, and I had to remove whatever that was clogging the water which was gross. But anyway, lik I pulled out the hair right, and it was like a train- rly damn gross (understatement here). Thats why- whenever hair starts to accumulate at the drain, start removing it already. Or the next time you've to clean up, it'll not be easy, and usually at a time when all you want to do is take a shower.

Just thinking.
How it is qte similar to how we (or me) usually like to deal with our (my) problems. More often than I would like to admit, I deem my problem insignificant, close one eye and sweep it under the carpet. And the problem really does seem to go away, but before you know it, the water has trouble draining, the problem is in-your-face, and you've got to do a massive clean up.

“I’m almost never serious, and I’m always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold hearted. I’m like a collection of paradoxes.”

/Ferdinand von Schrubentauffrt

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Cant wait to get my hair cut. I hope they dye away my blonde streakkk. And I want my fifteen pounds haha

SOMETIMES

WAKEUP CALL

"The goal of intimidation (fear) is to make us give up our authority, thereby rendering our gifts inoperative. We are then reduced to operating in our own limited strength and ability. This usually changes our position from offensive to defensive. Then aware that we are vulnerable, we further retreat to what is comfortable & safe."

/Breaking Intimidation, John Bevere

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What I am called to do versus What I am doing in my life right now

LOVELY ONE

MY (LD)BFFS

HAPPY VALENTINES ♥ ♥ ♥

This is for my goodies and closies back in Singapore.
I know some of you wont get to read this, but it serves as a reminder to me to always be thankful for you lovelies.

I do realised that my group of friends almost usually changes with the different phases of my life. And as I grow older, I've come to notice/realise who are the ones who are still sticking around with me. I dont know why you guys do so, and I know I dont say it enough, but I really do appreciate it. A lot. Thank you guys for being so understanding, as I know sometimes I can seem so far away so far away (be it in London/Singapore). But believe me, if ever you need anything/something/nothing, tell me, and I will be there.

In no particular order,

Nickkk


I know you're always making the effort to press into my life, to meet up with me, to talk to me and now, to bbm me ! We used to msn, but now msn to me is almost non-existent haha but I do remember you chatting with me at your 4-5am, and giving me wake up calls :S Thanks to you, I was almost never late for school haha I appreciate all the times you share with me your revelations, your good and happy times, as well as your problems. I think it's amazing how this distance has actually made us closer. I do feel that sometimes I am not there for you enough, so thank you for still regarding me as one of your closest sisters in Christ.

Dirisami


This was probably the official start of our friendship. Heh. To be honest, I think you and Nicholas can come over to London and live with me. You are always staying up so late, that you sleep at the same time as me. Not that I'm complaining, cos I know that when everyone else has slept, I have you to bbm, and can almost always expect an instant reply. You are one of those few whom I actually do not hesitate to say exactly what I think and feel, and also one of those few who actually know some of my deepest secrets haha and I crocheted for you k (I think this shows how much I love you).

Yilingg


How do I even begin. Haha, hmm I know it always seem so difficult to get me when I'm back in Singapore (or maybe only the last hols :s), and it actually seems easier to get me when I'm over here in London.. but please know that I love you though sometimes my actions seem to show otherwise. I've said it before, but I'll say it again- the place you have in my heart will never grow smaller. Your random bbm msgs always either make me o.o or LOL (i know you dont like that word but it's my blog haha). I dont call that often now but dont think that I've forgotten about you ever k ! Trust me, London has so many pandas gng on ard here, to remind me of you heh. Not that I need the reminding :p And I never said this before, but thank you, for walking down with me to the altar call(s).

Kelico


You're not actually in Singapore but here goes anyway. I never actually properly express how thankful I am to have you in my life. You really pushed me, to go beyond my comfort zone and boundaries, making me realised that I am actually much stronger than I thought I was. I will always remember you guiding me and being there for me when I made that painful but right decision last year; I really have you to thank for me being where I am now. And also, thank you for helping and encouraging me during my foundation year when I felt so stressful. I believe God had had it all planned out, and I thank Him for you.

Wayne


I thank God I have a leader like you, and a friend like you. When I'm lost, fearful and confused, you always seem to know what to say to assure me. You've seen me through my p/o, deliverances, transitions etc. Thank you for believing in me, and having such high confidence in me. I would never have thought that I could do what I can do now if not for you. I also want to thank you for trusting me, and regarding me as someone whom you feel you can share things on your heart with. I know you are always praying for me, and will always make time for me regardless. Again, I dont say it enough, but I really do appreciate all that you have done.

Felimiaomiao


Longest-time bud. And one of the closest friends I have outside of church. Thank you for always asking me to join you at all your parties and happening events- always creating chances for me to be more involved in your life. I know I always have someone whom I can talk to about things ppl usually shy away from haha, and we dont talk much, but when we do, we can go on and on and on, till bbm lags like crazy. We been through quite a lot, and I'm happy to say that this friendship is 7 years and counting !

Huimin


Ohmytian. We've only got what, five pictures tgt on fb that I've to use this !? Hahah. Anyhows, you are one of those whom I can talk for ages. Ages. Even if we were to meet each other only after say, ten years. I know I can always count on you to hear me rant, blabber and whine. I always take up hours of your time every time I call, and I really really want to thank you. Thank you for being so patient with me when I'm lik, spamming your phone inbox. You're probably the only one who's up at 8 in the morning listening to me go on and on for hours, even when you can just watch tv on a Saturday morning or sth. And you're always so willing to help me spell-check my essays, even when it's so last minute. You're like da bombz. And da broom which sweeps me off my feet (this joke never gets old) :D

Justinechuchu


Tbh, I was so tempted to put a picture of just me and a penguin :p Now, what can I say. I can always count on you to entertain my lame jokes and continue my random thoughts. I like to be in your cooper where we talk about anything and nothing, and then out of nowhere, we start taking pictures together and you'll start talking about how I always have the same funny face when you always have the same smile (except for this one). And we would then talk about things that make us go ya ya ya ! I know right ! Heeheehee -snort- heeheehee. To all those who never thought that penguins/pokemons/lolipops (srsly, you've got some serious identity crisis going on here !?) and dinosaurs could actually click and be goodestevaa fwenz, think again !

Yulin


Eh. We've got not many pictures tagged tgt on facebook leh. Anyway, I've got like the hello kitty collectibles, but you're the only one whom when I talk to, will actually reply :D I know that I can always turn to you for good advice. And hence, I know that sometimes I tend to talk to you only when I've got a big problem or when I feel frustrated and need to get things off my chest. You've been with me through almost all my major problems/troubles in my life. And it seems that every time I call you, you're in the shower ? Hahaha, but you always make time for me after that, even if it's just for a short while (lik, when you're in the mrt travelling to school). Thank you, really, for always being there for me.

Shims


I'm pretty sure that by now, you know that this has always been (and still is) my all-time favourite picture with you :) You're my fellow Easter Bunny. Silence is one of our secret languages, and oyster meesua is our favourite food. We like gymming tgt at places with amazing toilets and watching movies while throwing pillows at each other. Comfort is at its best when I'm with you. You're the only one who draws smileys on her toes to talk to me on Skype. I dont say it, but I hold you close and dear to my heart. I hope that some day, we'll switch roles, and I'll piggyback you :) Truckloads of love, and big massive hugs.

GOOD TO GO

The cold moon is shining
And the stars are aligning
And I'm here knocking on your door

It's two in the morning
And we both should be snoring
But you're far too lovely to ignore

So let's go out and raise some hell
Do what you want, I'll never tell
And yeah, I know I've been a little slow
But hey... I'm good to go

I'm snared and I'm smitten
Like a scared little kitten
But I'm not afraid to tell you anymore

I gave up denying
And I stopped always trying
To avoid the things that freaked me out before

I was afraid of fear itself
It took so long to leave this shell
And yeah, I know I've been a little slow
But hey... I'm good to go

I know I've been distant
So detached and resistant
To the things that are perfect in my life

I once was a hermit
But inside I was yearning just to
Take off the mask and see the light

And it was you who made me see
You gave me hope, and set me free
And yeah, I know I've been a little slow
But hey... I'm good to go

Finally finished planning my savings and expenses. I just need to stick to it (no shopping nuh-uh), and hope that the next six months wont require me to spend that much £££ especially on lik, projects and stuff, I'll be able to save more than I plan to ! Better still, if I can get a paid internship ahaha but I'll be happy if I can get one with travel and food expenses provided :-)

Keeping my fingers crossed for September.

COUNT(ING)DOWN

I know this is silly, but I just created this:


(Just a rough estimate)
(Need to start saving £££)
(And yes, thats you with your backpack travelling to London haha)

Oh and I bought two books today, for only £2 ♥
Been a while since I last read.


(The Reader & Wuthering Heights)

Did I also mention I'm gna have my hair cut again on the first of March !



Maybe I shld create a countdown for everything haha

MILES AWAY

When I am miles away
Will you still check on me
Someday things will be alright
Just tell me we will be
Together someday
Its in the dreams I had
I’ll be your sunset
You’ll be my silhouette

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I'd love to go to a pretty little town like St Albans some time, and stay in a B&B for a few days ♥

BONNE NUIT

I quite enjoyed travelling alone in Paris (well, at least for the first day before Yangzi came heh). One day, when I feel like it and my wallet allows it, I'll just buy a ticket, take the train, and have brunch in Paris haha

Cant wait for Malaga in April (told ya I'll find sth to look forward to ;p) !