Why cant anybody ever hang on to anything? You never believed in sentiment Mother, you saved only your own words, own picture of my grandmother and one of your 4-H cow. Only Claire could hold memory. It was the present she couldn't sort out.

/White Oleander, Janet Fitch

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I've been sleeping a lot lately.

"What’s bizarre? I mean, we’re all pretty bizarre. Some of us are just better at hiding it, that’s all."

/The Breakfast Club

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I think my laptop usage has dropped significantly now that I've got mobile internet hahaha, cos I check everything I need to check and do everything I need to do while travelling/ waiting/ anytime when I'm outside and have nothing to do, on my phone. Of course, having a bigger screen's always better but still. I know I know, I keep on gng on abt having internet on my phone, but I think it's really awesome. I think there might a problem when I return to sg and no-internet-on-phone days :s And I've been munching on SpecialK since I got back from LG; lovee the dried strawberries :3

It was nice to have practiced French today (:

FLAWED

Maha was saying this in the car a few days ago, that she felt sorry for those who worked really hard and went overboard in first year, only to find that first year results doesnt count.

I totally understand and know how she feels, maybe not in the aspect of the academic (maybe I dont work very hard, but I did work reasonably hard for my first year okay haa), but in other areas of my life. But feeling sorry or guilty doesnt help me much at all. Sometimes, I feel lik, because I know I dont really deserve it all, I just decide to take a backseat, to wait and see, watch myself fail. And say to myself, see I knew I dint deserve this afterall (such self-indulgence, I know).

I dont know if you know what I mean, but sometimes, I secretly wish for something really bad to happen to me. To test myself; see if I'd actually do something about something, and to find out what my limits are, and who I actually am.


It's days like these I'm reminded of how flawed I really am.
But it also reminds me of how beautiful the love of God actually is.

I can do nothing without You

Doc, once you've been driven off a bridge at 80 miles an hour, somehow you don't invite happiness in without a full body search.

/Vanilla Sky

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Omgg. My ears are exclaiming in joy hahahaha the fire alarm has finally gone off. Just when Rae and I were about to step out of our house (we decided to go Primark earlier due to it, you see). Ahh, I feel so grateful for peace and quiet now hehe.

My mobile internet seems to be having abit of a problem since the fire alarm came :s serious zz, it's been trying to connect to whatsapp since forever :((( Good thing I've got unlimited text too ayeee.

I DREAMT OF YOU TODAY

Somehow.
You always seem to find a way to suck out every ounce of energy I have, even as a friend, even in my dreams. I dont care, but I do. I never knew it could get this tiring. Did you even try, you'd ask. I did, I did try. Maybe you dint try hard enough, you'd say. And maybe thats why, I decided to stop trying altogether. Not because you mean nothing. But because I can never meet the expectations you have of me. You know me, or maybe you never did. Perhaps we were never who we thought we were. Or I've changed, you've changed; things changed. I'll be lying if I say I dont miss you at all. Time and distance have made things complicated. And easy.

For now, I'll keep the memories. And let the rest go.

"One time, when I was very little, I climbed a tree and ate these green, sour apples. My stomach swelled and became hard like a drum, it hurt a lot. Mother said that if I'd just waited for the apples to ripen, I wouldn't have become sick. So now, whenever I really want something, I try to remember what she said about the apples."

/The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini

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I just booked my airticket back wahaha !!
But super heart pain. Damn ex :s

Oh, and I just got whatsapp; you know what to do hahahaha

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: What! You too? I thought I was the only one.
/C.S. Lewis

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Random things that came to mind while waiting for lunch to be cooked:

1 The weather took a turn for the worse ystd. Haiyar, sian.

2 My brother just told me I left alot of things at his place the other time; 3-4bags, shoes, paint and materials, books and a luggage full of things. No wonder I cant find my things ahahaha :S

3 I had my first skype call over the PHONE hee. Took me ages please, to be lik properly connected aha and I cant video :< but pretty cool still luh.

4 Am gna listen to MGMT 24/7, to prep myself up for the gig next Friday whee :D

5 Rae's coursemate thinks my real name is Tzuki omgg -.- hahaha

TWEET TWEET

Ok. Now I understand why and how people can tweet so much haha ! Ever since I've got unlimited internet on my mobile, I'm so tempted to tweet lik, every single thing ahahahaha ok exaggerating alil. But yeah, I do feel like tweeting more than just replying people's tweets to me aha

And I just want to thank God for maps at bus stops, kind people on buses, and technology haha. If it werent for them, I've no idea how Mercy and I will ever get to Maha's house !! Gosh. It's like, in the middle of nowhere out there. Great partayee, with like a dance showdown btw girls and boys lmao. Oh, and I really enjoyed bhangra dancing with her family which is like so awesome cos they dance (not just swaying your body or bobbing your head kind of dance, but really dance omgg) together :3

Anyhoos,
HAPPY TWENTY FIRST MAHA ♥ ♥ ♥

JUST SO.

& I'll take these with me, as if these are all I'll ever have.


Meanwhile.
Time, please prove me wrong.

THE SALTWATER ROOM

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Did I mention I've got a new plan for my O2 ? :D So now I've got unlimited text and internet usage ! So i'm lik blogging using my phone now cos Teo Huimin is lateee ! And and and, I just installed ebuddy on my phone hahaha ok not like I use msn alot.. but still. It's pretty amazing. I tried it out with Lee Huimin just now hehehe. OH and I installed skype too, have not really tried using it though aha ok bye !

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0900
Tzuk: What are you doing now ?
WL: Editing pictures

1300
Tzuk: What are you doing now ?
WL: Editing pictures

1700
Tzuk: What are you doing now ?
WL: Editing pictures

0200
Tzuk: Omg. Are you still editing pictures ?!!

This practically sums up my last two days hahaha of course I did do things besides editing pictures luhhhh -.- Also, I've to upload the pictures before school start next week right. Anyhows, I'm for TDCC concert tonightttt :D And tmr will be a busy busy day.

WHELMED

Time to overcome my fears, to do more and out of, and rise up.
I want and need to rely on You more than ever.


I'm so happy I get to use Spotify again :D
And I'm so hungryyyyyy but I'm so lazy to leave my house and buy some cereal for breakfast. Actually, I feel like having sushi. Aha, not bad; I've been waking up at 9am yo. I can almost hear KPop saying thats not you, thats just jetlag! yada haha

Of all the hardships a person had to face, none was more punishing than the simple act of waiting.

/A Thousand Splendid Suns, Khaled Hosseini

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The journey back to London was long, but good. I made use of time wisely by watching five movies, whee. And I chose carefully to make sure they're all of different genres hahaha.

Action: Prince of Persia
Drama: Vanilla Sky
Romantic Comedy: L'arnacœur (Heartbreaker)
Family/Animation: Madagascar Escape 2 Africa
International: 200 Pounds Beauty

All good shows --> my taste's good hahahaha
Oh and the first show I watched was 200 Pounds Beauty which made me tear. Thankfully no one's sitting right beside me ok haha so embarrassing. And when I was watching Madagascar, I had to suppress my laughter such that it only came out as heh.

Anyhows, it was great to have met Ryan just now. Not sure when we'll meet again, or if ever haha good memories yo.

"I'm so afraid. Because I'm so profoundly happy. Happiness like this is frightening...They only let you this happy if they're preparing to take something from you."

/The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini

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I decided not to bring alot of things back to London. Firstly cos, I'm too weak to carry whatever-I-want anyway haha and secondly, no space. Just the essentials (and I'm still deciding if six pairs of shoes fall into that category). I'll bring the rest (eg. tennis racket, swimsuit, picnic mat) when I come back and leave agn in January. And I mean, who's gna have a picnic, play tennis and swim in autumn/winter anyway right ahaha I feel alil like I'm gng on a three-months holiday trip. Waha, if only. Def not looking forward to schoooool.

There's an opposite to déjà vu. They call it jamais vu. It's when you meet the same people or visit places, again and again, but each time is the first. Everybody is always a stranger. Nothing is ever familiar.

/Choke, Chuck Palahniuk

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Highlight of the day: SHIRLEY IS BACK !!
(She's been back for a few days already, but that doesnt count, since I only saw her today ahaha ♥)

Ok. Tired. Will update agn !

There was so much goodness in my life. So much happiness.
I wondered whether I deserved any of it.

/The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini

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Yesterday was ♥

Met Feli after so so,long.
Quality time, quality time. Plus, Waraku's lunch set was goooooooot.


(Sun's too bright, too bright)

Went to meet my 2Ks aft that.
Got a surprise from Kengs. It was a wowowweewow level surprise, hahaha.





And all I could say was Eeeee which was probably not a response anyone wld been hoping for when giving a gift, but I was really moved, almost to tears (waha gosh, so embarrassing). I was just lost for words, and mixing too much with my brother's housemates has been detrimental to my vocabulary, for words of expressions are replaced by sounds and noises.


(Oh and the night ended great with impromptu portebello dipper chillax kap-mcoreo & a carboot.)

ALREADY, I'M FORGETTING

"..but time can be a greedy thing- sometimes it steals the details for itself."

/The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini

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Ahhhh I dont wna go back. But I wna go back. PFFT. Cant have the best of both worlds, can I ? Okay, but at least I can say that, this is the best Summer I ever had (though I only had two in total waha) (:

And I shld be doing work since lik, an hour ago hahaha

SOUL VACATION

It’s been about two months since I got home from Europe; three since I saw most of the people I got to know in Sweden; eight since I started this long vacation that felt like it could last forever. But just like that, it’s coming to an end. And suddenly, memories become a bunch of figures strung together.

/thatsblasphemy.tumblr

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Waaaaa. My legs are covered in bruises from night cycling :s haha okay but surprisingly, my muscles arent aching (I'm FIT okay hahaha). Only the part btw my index finger and my thumb, cos yeah, I was super kanchiong so I grabbed the handles super tightly throughout hahaha so glad Yulin came ! She was my buddy, and a great one :D

Sian. I should start packing soon.

“I sometimes think that people’s hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what’s at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while.”

/Haruki Murakami

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I woke up to find my eyes crummy :s
I hope they get better by the night..

I feel like I'm hitting a roadblock, sometimes.

Okay. I went to do abit more research hahahaha there's this place called Oni Cupcakes, but it's at Far East Square.. no idea where's that. And apparently, only their chocolate cupcakes are good. The place looks nice enough though. And there's lik, C Cûp, whose cupcakes look tastier than Cupcake Momma's (lik srsly, mouth-watering) haha I dont know, but I prefer their kind of icing to Cupcake Momma's. But anyway, they dont have outlets :( OH, and Hairloom and Caramel sells cupcakes too. How did I miss them the other time ?!

I shld really sleep now lol, or it'll be ggxx at tmr's night cycling.

CUPCAKES ♥

Yesh. I've been craving for cupcakes hahaha and I realised there aint many cupcakes stores in Singapore. There are, but most of them are online sites (like the one above). So, what to do. Went to Marmalade Pantry @Orchard Ion ystd just to order a $4.20 cupcake (but yay, Nicholas treated me hehehe) which was finished in less than 10minutes hahahaha oh, but the icing's pretty good. The one I tried was called Cloud Nine. Would love to try the rest, but most of them have lik, banana haha, and I dont like banana.

By the way, you can see more cupcakes here.

You got me where you want me
but, I ain't all there.
my head is gone, my brain is fried,
'nd I'm standing right here.

You can touch me if you want to, oh
I don't really care
But I have ruined everything that I ever loved.

I guess we have to play
the cards we've been dealt.
And I guess I got nothing,

But whatever happens, happens...
'cause my life is falling apart,
Or is it getting better?- I don't know.

Well you can kiss me again if you want,
I don't mind.
Well you can kiss me again if you want,
oh that'd be fine.

KISS KISS BANG BANG

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I've not been eating alot (compared to the past, and when I'm in London), but it seems my cheeks' getting bigger still ahaha okay, I've been eating too much desserts.

Omgg my friend.



Hahaha awesome.

MISSING SUMMER EVEN BEFORE IT ENDED

It takes a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye.
/Anurag Gupta

I’m not calling you a liar, just don’t lie to me. I’m not calling you a thief, just don’t steal from me. I’m not calling you a ghost, stop haunting me

/Don't Tell Me, Florence and the Machine

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Well.
A lot can happen in three months (I dont mean it in a bad way). Just like this Summer, and the last. And probably, the next three months before the Winter break. Hopefully, London and school welcome me back with open arms haha, I'm not sure what to expect (which, I guess, can be said to be a good thing). When I return, and return again.

Omgomgomg. I just have to blog this.
Izzy just got married. She's not rly my friend hahahaha but she's from my church in London, and I met her a few times at SWA, and now she's married !! And she's the same age as me omgg.





I koped the pictures from facebook haha :X
Is the van cool or what.