"Remember that at any given moment
there are a thousand things you can love."

/David Levithan

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I repacked my luggage for the 134093846903th time, reduced the amt of clothes I'm bringing back by more than half, took out 5pairs of shoes and a bag of acrylic paint, and crap, it's still more than 20kg :< What is this.

Anyway.
After weighing my luggage, I weighed myself. And guess what. I've gained another 3kg since I came to London, zomg.

You ever put your arms out and spin really, really fast? Well, that’s what love is like. It makes your heart race. It turns the world upside down. But if you’re not careful, if you don’t keep your eyes on something still, you can lose your balance. You can’t see what’s happening to the people around you. You can’t see that you’re about to fall.

/Practical Magic

There’s this certain responsibility (basic, basically)
that applies to every human being in the world.
It’s this general sort of responsibility
and it means you gotta do stuff.
A super hero,
that’s somebody who follows up on that responsibility.

/The Ancient Book of Hip, D. W. Lichtenberg

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Guess what.
I'm craving for green tea hahaha I've not craved for it since I came back from Singapore the last time. Well, doesnt matter. I'm gng back soon ! Cant wait :D I do feel sad to be leaving London for two and a half months though. But it'll be over before I know it, and then I'll feel sad leaving Singapore. Ohwell. Life's a cycle, sometimes.

I'm watching PS Man right now haha, taking a break from anime and American TV.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YILING ♥

I hope this is still your favourite mambo song haha (:

Something to last for all time
It's never changing

YOU ARE MY STORY

Every one is a story—you are a story to me as I am to you. When I tell a story, I remember you, and you, and you. It doesn’t matter if I got the time wrong, got the dates messed up, maybe I changed the way you looked that day in my mind, and described you a little less accurate than I would like to, or the way you would like me to, but forgive me. Forgive me because that is the way I remember you, and that is the way I choose not to forget you. So let me tell my story about you. You are my story, more than just a story, of course. But let me tell a story about you-I might not tell it any good, but that’s just me—don’t judge a story by the way it was told; if it’s possible, take it as it is, and remember that with every story told, someone is remembered, but someone is forgotten, as well.

When we tell stories, we are really telling stories to ourselves, we don’t wish to forget; and so, we remember, I remember you, by telling stories about you, hoping you’ll know I remember (you).

/thatsblasphemy.tumblr

You've got to let go of who you were, to become who you will be.
/Janet Fitch

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Yay.
I am almost done with moving. Almost. It was only till after today, that my room finally looks like things have been shifted out of it. I'm just left with two main things- my kettle and rice-cooker :D And bits and pieces of I'm-not-sure-what-too. I cant rmb exactly how many trips I made but I can tell you which side does the tube door opens, and which direction you should turn to avoid the stairs and get on the long escalator, exiting at the exit closest to the road to my place hahaha

And after a few trips, I started praying in my heart every time I'm waiting for the tube.. for say, a corner to put my luggage, or for people to get off the same station as me, or sometmes, just a handle to hold on to. And it's amazing how God answers all of them hee :>

Anyway, I went with my brother and Jiayi (they helped me move today !!) to Song's to have Korean food ! And it was delicious, I tell you. Esp the spicy pork, which tasted like Assa's !! Now I envy Kellie, cos she's gna get married to a Korean guy haha, we played some trivia game on xbox. And I learnt a few things today. Like, the young of beavers and squirrels are called kittens. And that Kaiser Chief came from Leeds. And there are two Bridge of Sighs in England, one in Oxford and the other in Cambridge. And after that, we played some movie game which gives you points for having the most incorrect answers (yeah, me and my bro hahaha, but we managed to not be the last k). We played FIFA too. And it was actually fun ! I dint take many pictures that I would like to but it is a good thing, cos I have yet to upload the many pictures from alpha weekend away, and I'm too lazy these days to do so too.

"You can close your eyes to reality but not to memories."
/Stanislaw Jerzy Lec

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Waa moving house is no joke haha my shoulders are kind of aching now already. Jiayi helped me today and it seemed like we took forever just to move like a small small section of my whole room haha :S If I am rly gum with the production guys, I would have asked them to help me move haha but so paiseh. Hopefully I've garnered enough readers from the UK to do this hahahaha, if you're in the UK, you're free and do not mind travelling on your own expense (:S), and mayb wld like to flex your muscles, msg/email/fb/msn me (obviously a very desperate attempt) !

I did not feel that he owed it to me. And I did not feel that I owed it to him. We owed it to each other, which is something different.

/ Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close, Jonathan Safran Foer

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I hope you had a great weekend, cos I did ! It was definitely what I needed. Will try and upload pictures soooon; am still getting down to uploading my Richmond Park ones :S !



Oh yes, I went to check out Milk Bar with Hongsheng the other day. I know, like finally. And I was lucky, cos the owner Matt was there ! And it wasnt crowded, so yeah.. cos I actually went last Sunday to take a picture for the CCL magazine, but I dint go in as it was too crowded ! But he wasnt there anyway, so yea. I'll probably visit it agn when I want to enjoy both music and coffee/hot chocolate (:



And I had my last day of work placement @ Jo Heckett ! She's so lovely, she gave me a soap dish as a souvenir cos she knows that I'm gna move to a new place :-)

THIS IS DAMN FUNNY
Oh, I've always loved The Noose ~

“We never know what will happen but I believe good things happen every day. I believe good things happen even when bad things happen. And I believe on a happy day like today, we can still feel a little sad. And that’s life, isn’t it?”

/Elsewhere, Gabrielle Zevin

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Did I mention I was on a Bleach marathon ? I've not caught up yet cos I decided to take a break and do the more urgent things first, like packing or trying to pack haha

I also finally went to Richmond Park for a picnic with Natwee Alex and Jiayi ! It felt like it was a town by itself and not part of London at all. And there were wild deers and long grasses and endless roads to nowhere. And I also went to Oxford (wait, I think I mentioned that already right). Will upload pictures soon !! And, I'm gna have a Bourne movie marathon tmr (or today) hehe. Dont feel like sleeping. Ohwell.

"Letters are just pieces of paper," I said. "Burn them, and what stays in your heart will stay; keep them, and what vanishes will vanish."

/Norwegian Wood, Haruki Murakami

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Silly me accidentally deleted 3/4 of my pictures at Oxford today. Which really upset me (this is an understatement). But thanks to technology, a program called Recuva, and a determined spirit, I managed to recover 99% of it :D

I know that when you delete things on your computer/laptop, they're actually not really removed from your computer/laptop. And surely there will be many others like me who accidentally click the wrong button or sth, so surely in such a technological advanced era, there must be a way to retrieve my accidentally deleted pictures right.

Anyhows, thats not the main point.
I just think that my LG ppl are the nicest people ever.
I want to write more and explain why and things like that, but I just cant seem to find the right words.

She was romantic.
Before you really got to know her.

/D. W. Lichtenberg

In a perverse way, I was glad for the stitches, glad it would show, that there would be scars. What was the point in just being hurt on the inside? It should bloody well show.

/White Oleander, Janet Fitch

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I srsly do not know what I want most of the time. Even when it comes to something as simple and mundane like the weather. When it's hot, it's too hot. When it's cold, it's too cold. I complain too much I think.

And then, there are times when I get what I want (or thought I want), only to find out that I do not want it afterall. Do I then have to get what I want, to know what I truly do not want ?

I spent the whole of last night playing PS with Jiayi haha and today, we had a lunch buffet at Pizza Hut ! I'm gna stay away from pizzas for a while now.. and I think pastas too. Lol.

June's gna be a busy month ! Even though I dont have to be in college that often anymore. I'm gng down to Oxford this Saturday with my LG, and there's alpha weekendaway next week. And meetups here and there in between. I need to pack and move my things as well. And before you know it, June will be over and I'll be packing to go home ♥

One thing that has been on my mind.

With so many people leaving London this Summer, (not quite sure how to put it but) it seems like it's everyone's last weekend every weekend. Jiayi asked me quite a while back if I think I'd actually still be in contact with anyone after that. I said no. I do believe we'll still all be friends, but I just dont think we'll be in contact (at least not consistently). We might meet up twice every year or sth, and thats about it I guess. And I dont think it necessarily means it's a bad thing. Cos there are those friends whom you have already established a good foundation, have a mutual understanding of the r/s, and share the same wavelength/frequency, so even if you meet after a long time of not talking to each other, you guys can still talk forever.

Okay, but thats not my point.
The thing is, it is hard to maintain a r/s even when both parties are in the same country, so what's more when both are 7/8hours and miles apart ? Not trying to give myself excuses for any failing r/s maintainence, cos I know that if both sides are committed, it'll def work. It just makes me wonder how many people/things can a person be committed to. Family, spouses, bestfriend, close friends, good friends, colleagues mayb, work, watering the plants, keeping a pet dog, pri/sec sch cliques, replying emails, feeding the goldfish, maintaining a website, children.. etcetc.

And I'm also thinking how it's lik- when I'm here, I'm here; when I'm there, I'm there. Things here remains here, and things there remains there. Sure, there'll be some overlaps here and there, but they'll never quite merge properly.. just awkwardly. I am not complaining; it's just that sometimes I feel it's like, I'm leading two different and separate lives. When I'm back there, I feel foreign, and when I'm back here, I feel foreign again (okay I dont feel foreign for the whole period of time when I'm at wherever, but just the whole adapting agn after being comfortable and feeling like home at wherever I was at before). I can never be both here and there. As long as nothing's settled, I'll never quite belong to any.. bcos somehow, some parts of my heart will always be at the other.

A few days ago, Jiang asked me a question and I found myself struggling to give a definite answer. If you asked me a year ago, I wld have been able to give an answer straightaway. But I'm not so sure anymore. My heart has been touched, and many things have been blurred.

But I guess, if I think on the bright side, I've got two homes now.
Though it can get quite confusing. For my puny brain & heart.

"This was caused by that, and that means this, because of which such-and-such." Like that. I can't tell whether this kind of analysis is trying to simplify the world or complicate it.

/Norwegian Wood, Haruki Murakami

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I'm supposed to go for Switchfoot concert tonight, but after a look at my bank account and a quick calculation, I decided to sell my ticket to someone else who is more of a Switchfoot fan than I am. To be honest, I only know a handful of Switchfoot songs. Which, now that I think about it.. the same goes for 3/4 of the bands I like. Which means, I'm not really a concert kind of person, am I ? Haha hmm. Well, I've been to Coldplay-Travis concert in primary six hahaha :D ohhh and Jay Chou (♥ ♥ ♥ !!!!) in secondary sch. And the MTV Asia Awards (is this counted ?). But yay, I'm gng to MGMT and TDCC later this year, and mayb Suede too !

And I just ended my three-day facebook fast hahaha, it made me realised that my friends are very reliant on fb as a way to ask me out. Esp when it's the end of the month when most of us have used up our phone credits lol. And srsly, so many things can happen in three days aye.

And of course,
Happy birthday to Natalie, Jo and Boris !