I still cant believe today actually happened !?
The lovely boys are sleeping.. Actually, everybody is except me haha, i'm still in a 'what-just-happened' mode. Yes it's 6 in the morning.. I did sleep, but woke up halfway. Best day ever. I knew something was up. But still, i cant even.

Ohmahgahhhhhhhhhhh

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I feel kinda lost now that assessment's over HAHA
Okay, I do know what I still have to do (dissertation and research work), just that life is just more.. laidback now :D
I painted my nails last night ! Lik, properly finally. Heheh, they look like cupcake icing now ^^



Anyhows, I somehow feel there's something fishy going on ?? But I shall not think too much, as I always do haha..

These dreams under my pillow
In the twilight of these white nights

I am stressed.
I finally got hit by the stressbug >:(
I want a hug.
Or maybe not. I think I'd cry if someone were to hug me now.
I want my boyfriend lik, here with me :(
But I am not fussy. I could do with twirl. Or cupcakes. Or really good rocky road. Or ice cream. Milkshake ? A good burger ? Haha..
My head feels like a bundle of ...!? ready to spill out or burst any time.
I've got so much so much to do, but I dont even know what to do.

Ohmygosh.

(by the way, the picture above is drawn using a ball-point pen...... amazing or what.)

BETWEEN TWO LUNGS

Wow. First time I actually have that many notes on tumblr. 81 notes. First time I actually have more than 10 LOL. And it's only because it's McQueen we're talking about haha

Seriously. Stupid period. I'm having a huge craving for twirl and it's actually distracting me from my school work. You have to try it if you can. It's similar to cadbury flake (twirl is produced by cadbury too..) but more intense. I got Mercy addicted to it, and I intend to spread that love further.

Cant wait for Friday. Then December. Then 2012.

♥

http://asos.to/ASOSPartyDressMesh

Shit. This is damn nice. £55. Guess it's a good thing they dont have it in my size ha. (Not that I have £55 to spare lol) Facebook and Asos should be banned from my laptop. Back to market research...........

BLUE VALENTINE

Dean: In my experience, the prettier a girl is, the more nuts she is... which makes you insane. You're probably nutty coo coo crazy.

Cindy: I like how you can compliment and insult somebody at the same time, in equal measure.

& it will be the best thing ever.

It would have been an otherwise crap day if not for Mercy, Darel and the lifegroup. Even though you guys had no idea, thank you. Not to forget, Florence and the Machine.

It's not my birthday yet, but certainly feels like it came early! I received two presents today :D (and also, I ate some super awesome cookies earlier) (and, I'll be going to see some fireworks later in the night) (and going to a party aft that.. to celebrate someone else's birthday lol)

Anyhows, I went out to collect one from the PO, and when I was back, a package came through the door ! (I'll not talk about this one yet.. because I am still in the midst of confirming who the sender is lol. Dont wna make assumptions though I think I know who, heheh)

So yes.
Mr Benjamin Ong ♥ sent me a package but I was out ystd so I had to collect it today, and when I opened it, I was too touched to function. Literally.


(the picture does not do it any justice at all)
(best thing ever) (after God) (and after the boyfriend)

It's too precious, it's 100% leather, and the design is just amazing; I dont know how I'm going to use it ! You know lik, I would get so paranoid bringing it out hahahaha
It's similar to how someone gives you a really really pretty book, and you dont want to ruin it by filling it with your ugly handwriting or with dodgy pen inks or make a grammatical mistake or some sort.

I love you baby :') ♥

Positivity.

I actually did work today. Like, spending time in the library and getting down on my dissertation stuff. Kudos to me lololol. I do want to work on it more, but I am getting very very hungry (and sleepy too, may I add). Stomach is more important ^^

Anyway, I went to the doctor's today to re-register myself and also to get a doctor's letter. Guess what. I lost 4kg over the last three weeks when I was sick :O That's massive. I'm even lighter (ok just a kg less) than I was before I first came to London !

Anyway, I need to go now. To the toilet, and then to get my stomach filled haha love you guys ♥ !

This is a bit late.
Wanted to blog about this, but internet's being a bugger nowadays.

I'm sure many of you know/heard about the Chinese toddler who got ran over twice, with people passing by in between but reacted with nonchalance towards the badly injured toddler on the road.

I watched the video, out of curiosity. And curiosity killed me.
The first time she got ran over, I started crying. The second time, I couldnt watch. And by the end of the video, I was sobbing like nobody's business, feeling so helpless and pathetic. My mind couldnt comprehend what I just saw. The next thing I knew, I started saying sorry. Sorry on behalf of all the people who walked pass and did not hesitate to do so; sorry she experienced the ugly side of humans in the last moments of her life; sorry how the principles and values of many societies in the world have been compromised, seared and forgotten, even as we progressed tremendously.

Then I started saying sorry. Sorry for all the times I dint lend a helping hand even though I could have; sorry for all the times I compromised my own values because of pride, fear and selfishness; sorry for all the times I talk more than I act; sorry for the times I always think there's always another time.

I dont know why this is happening. All I can think is that this is a wake-up call of what the world is becoming into- apathetic. I dont think it is just China alone. I am pretty sure there are other similar cases like this, except that this happened to be caught on camera and went viral online.

And so I have made a decision. A really, really simple one.
Just treating people in general nicer, and being more appreciative of them. Saying thank you every time I board the bus. Smiling at the cashier. Buying food for the beggar. Giving small treats. Hugging people more. I dont know.. I dont know if any of my actions will make an impact at all, but I do believe it helps make the world a little better, somehow, no matter how small it is. Of course I'm only human and I still fail. But I will keep trying; I dont ever want to lose my soul, and forget what it is to live, even in the busyness and rat-race of life..

Halloween on Skype :)
Heh Heh

PASTEL HAIR

Love these colours !
But I dont think I can carry it off since I'm dark; I'll probably end up looking like an old woman lol. Also, I'll have to bleach my hair.

ALONE AGAIN, NATURALLY

Ok. Was supposed to do up a mind map for my dissertation tutorial on Friday, but. my. brain. is. dead.

Anyway, I cant wait to get my appetite back. I want to eat. Happily, and feeling satisfied. And not having to only be able to have small bites or soup-based foods. Yes I'm still sick.. I've got tonsillitis :( I just need to get well before my birthday..!

On a happier note, I finally got the blackberry cover I wanted !



And speaking of which, no idea what to do for my birthday again. I had Four Seasons and tried to watch Guy Fawkes fireworks for my 19th, finally caught Guy Fawkes fireworks for my 20th, had Assa and My Old Dutch for dinner with my brother and a few church people respectively for my 21st.. And I dont know what to do for this year since I actually dont have school on that Monday :D (..cos of dissertation week :( boo). I want to go somewhere actually.. but not on my actual birthday; it's a small possibility. But for my actual day, I actually just feel like staying home and have people cook for me or bring me food hahahaha or go out for a big but still affordable meal hahahaha (omgg i know where.. sichuan!!) (but i'm so lazy to ask people out :/)

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.”

/Pablo Neruda

A THOUSAND WORDS

Dont you know,
how much your words mean to me is more than you could ever imagined..

:')

Sometimes I look forward to one thing so much that my day/night comes crushing down when it doesnt come. Sigh. Turtle will do for tonight <3

LOSING THINGS

I wonder who else still reads my blog, because I know I've been MIA for so long. Yes yes, I've got a boyfriend now so thats why, but no. Ok mayb yes. Kinda maybe, partly. Haha, just that, it's been a while since I have had my solitary moments (yknow, lik talking to myself on the bus, in the shower and with my soft toy..).

Nowadays, things' occupying my mind are my fyp, my dissertation, the ipad, blackberry sudoku, my bed, shoes, my currently-growling stomach (Coco Rocks rocks btw !), christmas, and you- my boyfriend. (I know you read this heh) (to other ppl: okay, dont judge me)

I think that as we grow older, we start to lose things.
Lose memories, lose a sense of time, lose yourself, lose your camera (yeah, thats me), lose friends, and lose a sock.

But we can also lose memories, and know which part of your life, your past shaped who you are. Lose a sense of time, and then realise your priorities and change them if need to. Lose yourself in music, in art, in math, and in the simplest of things. Lose your camera, and learn that the most important pictures are captured with and in your heart and soul. Lose friends, and grow closer to the remaining few. Lose a sock, only to find it again days later, feeling all silly.

So go ahead, and dont be afraid to lose things.
Afterall, we never actually had anything to begin with.

FOTOLR PS HD

This is a super long overdue post I wanted to write after I got my iPad for the first few weeks. So since I have watched all my American TV and my Sim in SimsSocial has ran out of energy (lol), here I am !

Just wanted to show you guys this photo application called Fotolr PS HD, which if you ever feel lazy to put on make-up.. this is THE application. Okay.. I'm lik doing a review lol. Well, just thought the app's pretty cool.

BEFORE


AFTER

(Check out my colour contacts :D)
(Wanted to have my lips red, but I kept smudging with my clumsy fingers soo,)

There will not come a time where
we will have finished watching the movies, trying all sorts of food, going the many places, and taking enough pictures.

If I could bribe time.

You're not here now, but it's okay.
I know that I will see you in four hours.
Just like how you wont be here, but it will be okay.
Hours are indefinite, but I will see you eventually ♥

“What do you really want?” I asked him impatiently. “You, I want you,” he replied. I wasn’t buying it. I turned to walk away, when he stopped me. “I want that part of you that gets excited when you hear the ice cream truck. The part that cries when old people die in movies. The part that cares much more than what she wears. The part where she can totally be herself. The part that when I look at her, I only see her. The part where she could never give up a stuffed animal, cause she’ll feel bad for it. The part where she wants me, too. That’s what I really want.”

/eletheowl.tumblr

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It's almost 4am, and i'm tired but no, I dont want to go to sleep.. yet. Somehow trying to grasp lost time. Have not been faithful in uploading my pictures (nt that it rly matters), and when I finally did just now, my oh my did I realised how fast August went by. Certainly feels like I'm in a time-based game and someone just went to Settings, changed the time and date, and suddenly, I am just a month away from the start of my final year. I know that once my final year starts, life's gna get a hundred times more busy and stressful than it is now. I do miss the busyness of school but hiiii, i'm not done holidaying lol. That said, I cant wait to finish my course because then, it would mark a new beginning in my life.

“I will dream of you even when I can feel you lying next to me.”

/Tyler Knott Gregson